Feel everything, and carry on.

life, post breakup. so you've dismantled your life down to the bare bones, again. Everything you've built, gone. Every memory, photo, possession - this person, this life together, thread into every aspect of your day to day; a thread pulled loose, unraveling the life you once knew.

Did you lose who you were a little bit? Don't we always give up parts of ourself in order to make room for someone else? I think thats okay...if you can live with it.

Can you live with yourself? some days... mostly you blame yourself.

Repeating the mantra "How could you do this?" "You've ruined everything" "You'll regret this forever"

What now? Well, I suppose you keep on living. Minute by hour by day by week by month. Eventually the days add up to years. You wonder frequently how long the pain will persist.

In the early days after you threw the bomb into your loving relationship, it was chaos. The move, the heartbreak, the fear, the anxiety, the fast pace in which your life has just exploded into unrecognizable bits. Months of looping between coping mechanisms. You sit and stare at the life you now inhabit. You want to wake up from the nightmare, crying and gasping for air, he's there beside you, telling you it's going to be okay, it's just a nightmare.

Except, you're awake. The nightmare is real.

You think of him all of the time. The reality of a breakup when you both love each other, the pain of knowing it was a true Great Love, will always leave a scar on your heart. You have known true love. Some will say, it is better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all. You must acknowledge one thing... you are a better person for having loved.

Feel the hurt, embrace the sadness. Your heart feels deeply and what a precious thing that is to experience. This existence was meant for the full spectrum of emotion; to be able to feel everything is a gift. Through tears, gasping sobs, the deep ache of a broken heart, you will persist, you will go on and you will love again.